Time travel at the gas pump

Sometimes the past blows in with the breeze. Just the other day while pumping gas I found myself sitting at a table in my safety town class. The air heavy with humidity and the waxy scent of crayon. The sky bright and the breeze heavy. My cotton dress just short of stopping my legs from sticking to the chair underneath me. Then, running outside. Remembering to the point of feeling the pride I had saddling up on the small tricycle I used to navigate the black pavement, around the cones. Carefree and safe and under the sun.


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Oh, to feel that safe again.

Baby mine.

You slipped away sometime between a dream and a nightmare.

I opened my eyes to an unfamiliar hollow, rolled over and cradled the home we had made together.

And then it all felt different.

I couldn’t look people in the eye.

I couldn’t feel you inside.

Goodbye silently began before the first drop of loss.

And yet I still carried you with me and prayed you’d stay. But not this way.

Not without a heartbeat. Not without a chance.

And if I did something wrong, I’m sorry.

I loved you from a place deeper within me than where you began.

I imagined your sweet face, the soft of your feet, the warmth of your tiny breaths.

And I lost mine when you faded back inside.

You are the piece of me that died.

The heartache I cannot hide.

Baby mine.

Be Purdy Event!

April was an exciting month for BePurdy365!

We had our first Gallery Show at  Schlegel's Coffee House in Chillicothe, Ohio thanks to my Purdy Partner, Courtney Lewis!

Here are some photos from the show!   

Capture my Heart

I have taken hundreds and hundreds of photos of the last two years, but non has touched my heart so much as this one.

This is a documentation of our a new monthly tradition - painting our baby's home every month to document growth creatively. It's an exciting way to bond with baby and give us a special keepsake.

Enjoy.

Fifteen Days of Thanks - Day 15

Today I am thankful for the moments when we set aside our differences.

We have so much to learn from each other in our lives. We owe it to each other to tear down our walls and listen more intently.  We have to give more.  We have to love harder.

Relationships are one of the biggest components of life.  They open our minds, comfort us, motivate us and change us.  If we work  harder to be kinder and treat people with ultimate respect we will make life easier for everyone.

I'm sorry to anyone I have hurt. I forgive those who have hurt me.
These are the moments after that - where we have the opportunity to make it right and to treat each other well.

Thank you for all of you out there who are trying.  I know that I am.

Fifteen Days of Thanks - Day 14

Today I am thankful for health and for the awareness to not take it for granted.

I pray for everyone who is struggling with their health right now and I actively try to remember to celebrate my own.

Fifteen Days of Thanks - Day 13

Today I am thankful for days away from the computer.

Hope you all have enjoyed yours as much as I have mine.

xoxoxox. Night.